Have you noticed how you are bombarded with different perceptions all the time throughout the day? One person thinks Trump is the devil incarnate. Another may think that atleast he is not pretending to be an angel like the others did, who were actually the devil in disguise. The common man suffering might want a job not really bothered about the environment. Others who are tired of the monotony and the superficiality of a big job might want to live in a cave for a while and condemn development. Some just want to accumulate as many experiences be it through marriage, kids, travel or picket fences. Another might want to run from it all having been too long in it. Some think they should save the world. Others want a flyover so they are not be stuck in traffic.
All opposing views. All different perceptions. If you agree or have one perception about one matter you think the other is wrong and you are right. Then you divide yourself and feel separated from existence. And this is just not your natural state.
Could you allow all perceptions to be and not try too hard to change them? Atleast not from the level that you are on while perceiving from only your point of view? You don’t need to agree or disagree. All you need to do is realise that they are all different perceptions and you have the capacity to rise above all perceptions and view them non-judgmentally.. To rise above all perceptions means to enter the realm of silence which allows everything to be. It allows your perception to be, and also the other’s. If nothing, what this does is reduce the noise levels of all the chaos in the world.
Then we can act from love rather than panic. Then we can spread more love than fear with all our opinions. Then even if you support a certain cause which is not wrong, you will also be big enough to allow the opposite without which you would have no job.
From this silence which is above all kinds of perceptions, you have better clarity and you will not add to the noise of the world. Like this you can transform what needs to transform and uplift what needs uplifting. If you remain on the level of your opponent you are only encouraging the fight. When you rise above all opposites and allow whatever actions and perceptions to happen including yours and the others, then harmony will follow in the world. Then your perception changes to a peaceful and inclusive one. Like this you can elevate the world through shifting your own perception.
Spiritual practice is becoming aware of our minds, so it is allowed space to settle and thereby settle our energies. Unsettled energies and thought patterns are what creates diseases in our bodies. Hence a practice which helps align us to our natural state of balance will help in all areas of our life. This is probably why yoga has caught on so much. Besides making you feel really good, it also somewhat brings a sense of well-being in general. The reason we go through most of our problems, is because of blocked energy that is expressing in ways that are not comfortable so it can be released and pure free energy can flow. These blocked energy patterns are what manifests situations that are challenging and painful. We may carry huge amounts of these blocked energies and we may also keep adding on to them if we do not want to face them and just want to escape with all kinds of addictions. This is why it makes me cringe when I hear of depression being promoted as something to be treated with medicines. Medicines will only make you a little more addicted and push you deeper into it. Depression is the ultimate cosmic test that is put to you which you can use to transcend the illusion of time itself. A true guide is someone who will make you aware of your own wrong beliefs and give you the power to come out of it on your own. Nobody else can do it for you. You are your own hero. This is the truth.
Of-course it totally depends on you. If you believe that medicines are what will help you then you probably should go for that because it will have a better effect than spiritual practices which you do not have any faith in. Although we refer to them as spiritual practices it is nothing but a humility to be open to learning and unlearning about yourself so you can be healed. The reason we accumulate all these blocked energies is that in life we come across various situations which we didn’t expect and it shocks us and automatically put up defense mechanisms which block our natural flow. The most effective way of releasing and seeing through these energies is having some form of creative outlet. Anything from doing a yoga practice, to painting to writing. Only when there is an abundance of outflow can there be an inflow of energy which is healing and rejuvenating. Even if we think we are not too artistic, we are still creative beings. Unless we express we suppress.
When I first started putting up my writing I was worried of being judged and laughed at. But I saw that my sharing was really my own way of opening up to more and more insights. So if anyone is telling you to not express in subtle or direct ways, make sure you do the opposite. It is nothing but your own fears and insecurities manifesting as their mockery or opinions. Even if you are writing the most ridiculous things or making funny paintings, or dancing in front of the mirror in your room like an idiot, you should go for it. Be silly. There is nothing to take so seriously.
As I read more and more these days about personality disorders of all sorts, it makes me wonder if there is really a personality which is not a disorder. Every description I have read of sociopaths or narcissists, I can associate with some people I have had relationships with, and it seems natural now given my characteristics of being an empath. An empath also needs to find freedom from the pain of being so sensitive to everything around them which makes them just as “troubled” to say the least.
Every “person” if you look closely have all these disorders in some small quantities or the other as we find ourselves in fits of rage or depression or some kind of frenzy or the other. And if you are too balanced then there could be a serial killer waiting to get out, who knows. One thing that we have done so far in the world is blame our childhood and circumstances or experiences for our imbalances. But while they might have had an affect on us, we still have the power to see through all of them if we wake up to our true identities which is not confined to any one type of “personality”.
We are open consciousness that can take any shape and form including good or bad personalities. If we rise above this consciousness and can be the awareness which is aware of our consciousness we will be able to observe our thought patterns, reactions and tendencies from a detached point of view. This will allow the tendencies that we carry to be seen in the clarity of awareness which can then transform it to lightness and love and break the old patterns. It does take some meditative practice to be able to bring yourself to see that you are this awareness which is above all else, even consciousness, and allow it the space to function as your life, an expression of clarity, peace, love and happiness. How else do you save the world from yourself? The world needs to be saved from these damaged personalities and nothing else. Every problem we face is due to these personalities. Our war should be against this illusion we have lived by and our victory will be in transforming ourselves.
What if you were told that you are your destiny. You are already where you will be 20 years from now. You are exactly where you were 20 years ago. You are at your highest place right now. Through you destiny is being fulfilled with no time or distance standing is your way. You only need to realize this and stop trying to get anywhere or search for anything anymore so it can fully reveal itself. As you live more from this fulfilled space, your own fulfillment reaches into the physical world and transforms it and aligns it to your natural state of being totally fulfilled.
This space of fulfillment paradoxically is also very empty. Empty of all identification with what happens, with roles, past and future references and thoughts of any kind. It is through your apparatus of being present here in your form that you can recognize this space within yourself. We use many methods like Yoga and Meditation to connect with this space. But in reality it is the only space that it alive. The reality we are used to functioning from most of our lives is only a projection of our mental state, and hence all the chaos. When reality begins to function in the world from this space of empty fulfillment, all you will witness is a flow of immense mystery through a stillness which is a pure knowing. Knowing of itself to be this that cannot be put in words. Yet we communicate this to each other in so many ways through our multiple forms and expressions. This world is simply an expression of this silence.
The bodily feeling of this is as if you are in an atmosphere which has similar qualities as water, buoyant and full. You feel more like this “presence” that includes your body, other bodies, everything that your mind perceives and your heart knows more, than you have a feeling of being the separate person with a separate body and a separate life, anymore. In a sense you lose your life in this space as you become life itself. It a total shift of perception and your mind might take a long time adjusting to this. Not knowing how to orient itself, you might find your mind getting confused and disoriented, not knowing how to “be” in the world. Everything that has been learnt is cast off in a single swoop and you may have no idea what to now refer to as you go about trying to live your life. You have no rules or principles of dos and don’ts or rights and wrongs. Atleast none that the mind had concluded as being real and true. But intuitively you know life moves a certain way and you are required to respond in every moment to life in relativity. You will slowly learn to respond more from an intuitive sense than from concepts that your mind held. The people around you might accuse you of changing and being erratic and confused. But you should know and allow yourself to go through this period without judging yourself so you can open up to the infinite mysteries of yourself. For the mind to come to terms with this change could take long depending on how much resistance and fear you have of the unknown. You will be able to respond only in the moment so don’t go making big statements anymore about anything. It might surprise you how much you contradict yourself and you might realize what you said and what your mind thinks as being the ideal answer has nothing to do with what seems like the right thing to do when the moment actually arrives.
Total clarity comes when the mind stops fighting and resisting, and surrenders to this wisdom of the heart which is spontaneous. There are no more decisions to make then or any future to worry about and the past becomes obsolete. You are free of all ideas of responsibilities and roles and yet you respond to life much better that you did when you worried about it. Everything that needs your attention gets your attention and with the added bonus of unconditional love shining on it making whatever your attention falls on blossom into the most beautiful creation. All the times that you worried about how you were going to carry on in the world and how you were going to take care of your responsibilities dissolve in the timeless now where you find your permanent residence. If you have had an idea that you needed to achieve great things, setting goals and dreams which you thought you would be working towards, you might find all of them meet their end in this timelessness, and in this end they will be realized as a reality now and not just a dream of the future. This happens when, how you see yourself shifts from the person that needs to strive to get from point a. to point b. to a presence in which point a. and point b. are all in the same place. You are already where you aspire to be. It won’t even matter which point you are at anymore because in truth you are above this realm where points can be plotted. You are presence, and the whole notion of achievement and points are completely pointless here. It is only when you compete with yourself and others that you need to change and grow and achieve and set goals. It makes no sense to do this when your view is from the top which looks down at all the running around you did up until that point, amazed at how much you believed in that reality.
The world is a reflection of your state of being. If you see a world of turmoil you are seeing a reflection of the turmoil inside you. If you see your world flowing in harmony you are seeing your own harmonious reflection. The only function of the ‘world’ is to show you a reflection of yourself so the only thing that needs your attention is yourself. Everything that happens outside you follows your state and not the other way around where you are trying to solve the problems you imagine you have. If we realize this and apply this the world will be a very different place. The only one you complain about is yourself and it is your responsibility to reflect upon yourself and bring yourself to a state of harmony. This is the only service you can do for the world. Everything else is just theatrics.
The only obstacle is lack of clarity. With the spiritual practice all that we look for is clarity. Clarity of who we are, clarity of why life can sometimes be hard while other times hopeful and clarity of why everything seems temporary in the foreground of a sense of eternity. When we get into the spiritual practice, we have the sense that we have something profound to discover and are sometimes willing to let go of everything including our own “lives”. The sense or belief is that there is a person who is making all these sacrifices and going through a journey to reach a higher self or spirit. In the journey you may discover that there is no real you other than as this spirit which has no residence anywhere, it being formless with no description. None-the-less you are still perceiving a world of form in which everyone functions as if they are all individual entities. There may be an in-between period, where you get completely disoriented not finding yourself anywhere, yet everything still seeming very real. In this period you might find that you don’t really know how to function anymore since you are not driven by the old motivations, and yet you have no new motivation or can’t really see any new inspiration, and are left searching without knowing what it is you look for. All the reservations you have about yourself and for your inspiration to come forth, you need to see for yourself that you never journeyed from person to spirit, but it was always spirit that journeyed into manifestation. Spirit was always clearing away the false sense of self to come forth into the world and express as life. There is no you as a person who needs to find inspiration, the spirit is the inspiration. You are the spirit that expresses as ‘life’ so to speak, or the moment or the now. When you see this you realise that the journey is a ‘becoming’ in the direction of creation rather than a person trying to ‘be spiritual’. The one who makes the journey is the dimensionless spirit towards everything in time and not the other way around. Then the orientation of the spirit is recognized as being towards enlivening, enlightening and illuminating its own way and transcend being lost in the dimension of form. The true you who is indescribable having no place to reach, being everywhere and everything, has the potential to expand infinitely through every dimension exploring itself and exploding as expression.
The freedom is the space created for spirit to be itself by clearing out the sense of a false you who acted as a person. The obstacle is the belief that you are someone and this stands as ‘I’ in the mind which blocks clarity and self realization. Hence with nobody to stand in the way and no more decisions to make, the spirit is free to thrive as life and creation. The reason if any for this journey of back and forth between form and the formless is simply love and desire to experience its own infinity, subtle or substantial.