Know nothing

I have something to say to you and I will say it a thousand times till you hear what I have to say.
Until you listen, really listen…
Hear, what I have to say.

Where you think you are geographically, personally or spiritually is just a visualization.
You are invisible.
Everything that appears to you is a concept ,
Even that you are the one.
There is no continuity of time, neither is there any kind of progression.
Now appears and now disappears for another now.
Unless you believe with a logical mindset that you are seeing the same images everyday, every smallest part of a Millisecond is fresh and new.
You can stay as this to which there is only this spontaneous adventure of eternal delight.
Or you can choose to define yourself as your name, story, personality and what not.

How can you know this you ask?
Maybe through questioning what all this was about.
It's not really rocket science for which you might need a degree.
It is by your own your capacity to understand the truth through your experience of life and time and death and strife.
And allowing yourself to accept that you know absolutely nothing.

Reactions from the universe

When the universe looks what does she see?

Does she see a world that’s divided and self destructing through reckless consumption of all resources natural and synthetic?

Or does she, see herself, become more conscious of herself who was neglected so far due to ignorance of self?

Does she see different religions and countries and colours and degrees ?

Or does she see herself in a lower state trying to find herself in a higher state?
Do you think you are an individual and the universe is something other than you?

Or do you think that you are in a universe struggling to survive? If that is what you think then don’t you think that is the problem and not so much that you are struggling? The problem is that you are trying to survive as the individual in an unknown universe….when the truth is that you are the unknown universe and don’t need to survive as an individual to be alive.

You as the universe would only rejoice that consciousness is finally waking up to what has been done wrong for so long

A few monsters might be all it takes to get the whole world together on the same side for once

You might be Finally waking up from the slumber and noticing how you have been fooling yourself, and finding in your heart to speak up against what you feel is far from harmonious

It may not be as bad as you think when you look from the point of view of the whole universe
The universe has not felt this elevated in a long time surely, 

While it felt dead with people going about thinking their own needs were all that were relevant within their own little stories

As she feels the energy of the world shift from the mundane to the real, 

She feels the sense of hope and transformation coming through the chaos and fear

“Bless these idiots” she says, “It took their own monstrous reflections to make them finally see, that, that is not what they stand for as the Universe which is Me”

Discouraging encouragement toward sprituality

In spiritual disciplines, we usually find advise to not follow desires, to not indulge in extremities, to not go with your restless energies etc. This might work as a fake it till you make it concept. But the truth is, that the spiritual inclination is something we cannot always explain. Especially if it is genuine.  Because it has not reason or rationality to it. There might have been some reason when you decided to explore it to feel good, or be happy or to end suffering. But then you enter a stage after that which is completely destructive to your story in life. At this stage you cannot go back to your old ways of following a good feeling, be it though a meditative or yoga practice or the bliss of the quiet mountains or indulgence in material things. At this stage you are fully aware of the raging war inside you between truth and illusion. And here you had better allow truth to win and this might be at the cost of all your illusions, or in other words your false beliefs, your ideas, ideologies, your bullshit, being confronted and slain by your own awareness of them. There is nothing angelic about this stage. It can be painful and you may not always see clearly. But your love and intention is the only thing that will take you through it. If anything you will walk around with your hair in shambles and barely hanging on to your bearings. But even in this war zone, something inside you might still be smiling, because you know that this is pure grace. It does not feel like the doom that you experienced when you were still a full person with insecurities based on what you were conditioned by. This is a sacred destruction, Shiva’s destruction, he being the symbol for the destroyer of illusions. So spirituality is not for you if you have a lot to lose. Because you can be rest assured you will lose absolutely everything. Not necessary that you will end up on the streets. Although that is possibility as well. But the point is that it won’t matter to you what you lose in the realm of illusions, because you know that you have no choice but to see it through to the end. It calls for a love and faith that is way bigger than all your insecurities and fears. The left brained logical mind might call this stupid. But you know that this is what you are here for. If you have a doubt then you mustn’t even get on this journey. Not to discourage, but that it what it calls for. And if you are not willing to die to this, you could be stuck in a place you don’t want to be and settle for less, which would be a sellout. In the end you will see how beautifully things turn out, with you out of the way. You will see all your fears were nothing but mirrors showing you scary reflections of your mind’s imagination which came from conditioning that was projected on you through the ignorance of the world around you. So you need to go inward and remove this conditioning so the spontaneity can flow.

The desirelessness,  the restfulness, the peace, the silence, the contentment for no reason, are all the result of a true and genuine transformation. In fact if there is a desire, you might as well go with it till it exhausts itself. If your seeking is genuine, then you will set up sweet disaster for yourself at every step, which will by itself refine your tastes to appreciating and creating peace, love and joy as your natural state that does not depend on anything outside yourself. This will be your experience when you, as a person with all your ideas come to an end and silence expresses as depth, intensity, fearlessness, love and purity.  You will then experience yourself as everything and nothing, you will then experience yourself as timelessness.

As you see yourself in this light, your need to accumulate wealth, your need to consume, and you need to chase experiences, will be replaced with intense appreciation for all that is. If a large number of us transform to this state, we wouldn’t cut down trees like there is no tomorrow to build blocks of ugly high-rises that block out the sun and increase the heat. We wouldn’t pollute the earth through excessive consumption of fuels that emit poison into the air. We wouldn’t hoard at the expense of the less fortunate. We wouldn’t hurt animals to wear things we think make us stand out in society and feel good about ourselves. We wouldn’t see distinctions between anything be it people  or other species and hence there would be no wars or terror. We would be simply love expressing love.

But it is your choice.




Have you noticed how you are bombarded with different perceptions all the time throughout the day? One person thinks Trump is the devil incarnate. Another may think that atleast he is not pretending to be an angel like the others did, who were actually the devil in disguise. The common man suffering might want a job not really bothered about the environment. Others who are tired of the monotony and the superficiality of a big job might want to live in a cave for a while and condemn development. Some just want to accumulate as many experiences be it through marriage, kids, travel or picket fences. Another might want to run from it all having been too long in it. Some think they should save the world. Others want a flyover so they are not be stuck in traffic.


All opposing views. All different perceptions. If you agree or have one perception about one matter you think the other is wrong and you are right. Then you divide yourself and feel separated from existence. And this is just not your natural state.


Could you allow all perceptions to be and not try too hard to change them? Atleast not from the level that you are on while perceiving from only your point of view? You don’t need to agree or disagree. All you need to do is realise that they are all different perceptions and you have the capacity to rise above all perceptions and view them non-judgmentally.. To rise above all perceptions means to enter the realm of silence which allows everything to be. It allows your perception to be, and also the other’s. If nothing, what this does is reduce the noise levels of all the chaos in the world.


Then we can act from love rather than panic. Then we can spread more love than fear with all our opinions. Then even if you support a certain cause which is not wrong, you will also be big enough to allow the opposite without which you would have no job.


From this silence which is above all kinds of perceptions, you have better clarity and you will not add to the noise of the world. Like this you can transform what needs to transform and uplift what needs uplifting. If you remain on the level of your opponent you are only encouraging the fight. When you rise above all opposites and allow whatever actions and perceptions to happen including yours and the others, then harmony will follow in the world. Then your perception changes to a peaceful and inclusive one. Like this you can elevate the world through shifting your own perception.




Creativity is flow

Spiritual practice is becoming aware of our minds, so it is allowed space to settle and thereby settle our energies. Unsettled energies and thought patterns are what creates diseases in our bodies. Hence a practice which helps align us to our natural state of balance will help in all areas of our life. This is probably why yoga has caught on so much. Besides making you feel really good, it also somewhat brings a sense of well-being in general. The reason we go through most of our problems, is because of blocked energy that is expressing in ways that are not comfortable so it can be released and pure free energy can flow. These blocked energy patterns are what manifests situations that are challenging and painful. We may carry huge amounts of these blocked energies and we may also keep adding on to them if we do not want to face them and just want to escape with all kinds of addictions. This is why it makes me cringe when I hear of depression being promoted as something to be treated with medicines. Medicines will only make you a little more addicted and push you deeper into it. Depression is the ultimate cosmic test that is put to you which you can use to transcend the illusion of time itself. A true guide is someone who will make you aware of your own wrong beliefs and give you the power to come out of it on your own. Nobody else can do it for you. You are your own hero. This is the truth.

Of-course it totally depends on you. If you believe that medicines are what will help you then you probably should go for that because it will have a better effect than spiritual practices which you do not have any faith in. Although we refer to them as spiritual practices it is nothing but a humility to be open to learning and unlearning about yourself so you can be healed. The reason we accumulate all these blocked energies is that in life we come across various situations which we didn’t expect and it shocks us and automatically put up defense mechanisms which block our natural flow. The most effective way of releasing and seeing through these energies is having some form of creative outlet. Anything from doing a yoga practice, to painting to writing. Only when there is an abundance of outflow can there be an inflow of energy which is healing and rejuvenating. Even if we think we are not too artistic, we are still creative beings. Unless we express we suppress.

When I first started putting up my writing I was worried of being judged and laughed at. But I saw that my sharing was really my own way of opening up to more and more insights. So if anyone is telling you to not express in subtle or direct ways, make sure you do the opposite. It is nothing but your own fears and insecurities manifesting as their mockery or opinions. Even if you are writing the most ridiculous things or making funny paintings, or dancing in front of the mirror in your room like an idiot, you should go for it. Be silly. There is nothing to take so seriously.


Personality a disorder by itself

As I read more and more these days about personality disorders of all sorts, it makes me wonder if there is really a personality which is not a disorder. Every description I have read of sociopaths or narcissists, I can associate with some people I have had relationships with, and it seems natural now given my characteristics of being an empath. An empath also needs to find freedom from the pain of being so sensitive to everything around them which makes them just as “troubled” to say the least.

Every “person” if you look closely have all these disorders in some small quantities or the other as we find ourselves in fits of rage or depression or some kind of frenzy or the other. And if you are too balanced then there could be a serial killer waiting to get out, who knows. One thing that we have done so far in the world is blame our childhood and circumstances or experiences for our imbalances. But while they might have had an affect on us, we still have the power to see through all of them if we wake up to our true identities which is not confined to any one type of “personality”.

We are open consciousness that can take any shape and form including good or bad personalities. If we rise above this consciousness and can be the awareness which is aware of our consciousness we will be able to observe our thought patterns, reactions and tendencies from a detached point of view. This will allow the tendencies that we carry to be seen in the clarity of awareness which can then transform it to lightness and love and break the old patterns. It does take some meditative practice to be able to bring yourself to see that you are this awareness which is above all else, even consciousness, and allow it the space to function as your life, an expression of clarity, peace, love and happiness. How else do you save the world from yourself? The world needs to be saved from these damaged personalities and nothing else. Every problem we face is due to these personalities. Our war should be against this illusion we have lived by and our victory will be in transforming ourselves.

Excerpt from a book Im writing

What if you were told that you are your destiny. You are already where you will be 20 years from now. You are exactly where you were 20 years ago. You are at your highest place right now. Through you destiny is being fulfilled with no time or distance standing is your way. You only need to realize this and stop trying to get anywhere or search for anything anymore so it can fully reveal itself. As you live more from this fulfilled space, your own fulfillment reaches into the physical world and transforms it and aligns it to your natural state of being totally fulfilled.

This space of fulfillment paradoxically is also very empty. Empty of all identification with what happens, with roles, past and future references and thoughts of any kind. It is through your apparatus of being present here in your form that you can recognize this space within yourself. We use many methods like Yoga and Meditation to connect with this space. But in reality it is the only space that it alive. The reality we are used to functioning from most of our lives is only a projection of our mental state, and hence all the chaos. When reality begins to function in the world from this space of empty fulfillment, all you will witness is a flow of immense mystery through a stillness which is a pure knowing. Knowing of itself to be this that cannot be put in words. Yet we communicate this to each other in so many ways through our multiple forms and expressions. This world is simply an expression of this silence.

The bodily feeling of this is as if you are in an atmosphere which has similar qualities as water, buoyant and full. You feel more like this “presence” that includes your body, other bodies, everything that your mind perceives and your heart knows more, than you have a feeling of being the separate person with a separate body and  a separate life, anymore. In a sense you lose your life in this space as you become life itself. It a total shift of perception and your mind might take a long time adjusting to this. Not knowing how to orient itself, you might find your mind getting confused and disoriented, not knowing how to “be” in the world. Everything that has been learnt is cast off in a single swoop and you may have no idea what to now refer to as you go about trying to live your life. You have no rules or principles of dos and don’ts or rights and wrongs. Atleast none that the mind had concluded as being real and true. But intuitively you know life moves a certain way and you are required to respond in every moment to life in relativity. You will slowly learn to respond more from an intuitive sense than from concepts that your mind held. The people around you might accuse you of changing and being erratic and confused. But you should know and allow yourself to go through this period without judging yourself so you can open up to the infinite mysteries of yourself. For the mind to come to terms with this change could take long depending on how much resistance and fear you have of the unknown. You will be able to respond only in the moment so don’t go making big statements anymore about anything. It might surprise you how much you contradict yourself and you might realize what you said  and what your mind thinks as being the ideal answer has nothing to do with what seems like the right thing to do when the moment actually arrives.

Total clarity comes when the mind stops fighting and resisting, and surrenders to this wisdom of the heart which is spontaneous. There are no more decisions to make then or any future to worry about and the past becomes obsolete.  You are free of all ideas of responsibilities and roles and yet you respond to life much better that you did when you worried about it. Everything that needs your attention gets your attention and with the added bonus of unconditional love shining on it making whatever your attention falls on blossom into the most beautiful creation. All the times that you worried about how you were going to carry on in the world and how you were going to take care of your responsibilities dissolve in the timeless now where you find your permanent residence. If you have had an idea that you needed to achieve great things, setting goals and dreams which you thought you would be working towards, you might find all of them meet their end in this timelessness, and in this end they will be realized as a reality now and not just a dream of the future. This happens when, how you see yourself shifts from the person that needs to strive to get from point a. to point b. to a presence in which point a. and point b. are all in the same place. You are already where you aspire to be. It won’t even matter which point you are at anymore because in truth you are above this realm where points can be plotted. You are presence, and the whole notion of achievement and points are completely pointless here. It is only when you compete with yourself and others that you need to change and grow and achieve and set goals. It makes no sense to do this when your view is from the top which looks down at all the running around you did up until that point, amazed at how much you believed in that reality.