You may need an old and run down tunnel to crawl through, and come out the other side to a new dimension, where the light shines bright on the spring leaves, just as it does on the winter snow.
There is no sense in resisting the musty smell of the narrow pathway you need to cross, because you know there is nothing more you want other than to be in the open again.
Crawling right through without being delayed by selfish notions, is a lonely, but the only way to free yourself of being in the hole. Worth the while you would think, and love the adventure, but maybe only in retrospect. Which is once you get to the other side of the ruin.
A game that is intelligent enough to know that It is even better than having had the open fields all along, which you may have otherwise just taken for granted.

But as soon as time in the tunnel, which feels like an eternity, is forgotten, and moving forward was the only choice to avoid becoming one with the rust, then, there will remain no gap, between when you were on your fours and when you were standing facing the sun, sunken in the timeless.
Would you ever then be bored of a repetitive cyclic occurrence, having gone through the worst; sucked into a hole which offered no variance?
Could you ever call something old and run down, when your vision has gained depth and you can see through a lens which appreciates the texture of the instant, rather than the story it represents?
Everything fresh and new at all times is not a fantasy but a reality when your eyes are open and all you ever see is life appearing as your vision. But was veiled while you believed you were crawling.
For the truth is, you always only had your eyes open and all you ever saw was life appearing as your vision: crawling or standing in the sun, was only an interpretation of the dynamics.

Alchemy, the conversion of rock into a precious metal, may need some digging deep and crawling. Finding that treasure and bringing it into the world to share your story of rags to riches, can only happen if you are willing to bear a few bruises and burns, on the way to declaring magic.

Know nothing

I have something to say to you and I will say it a thousand times till you hear what I have to say.
Until you listen, really listen…
Hear, what I have to say.

Where you think you are geographically, personally or spiritually is just a visualization.
You are invisible.
Everything that appears to you is a concept ,
Even that you are the one.
There is no continuity of time, neither is there any kind of progression.
Now appears and now disappears for another now.
Unless you believe with a logical mindset that you are seeing the same images everyday, every smallest part of a Millisecond is fresh and new.
You can stay as this to which there is only this spontaneous adventure of eternal delight.
Or you can choose to define yourself as your name, story, personality and what not.

How can you know this you ask?
Maybe through questioning what all this was about.
It's not really rocket science for which you might need a degree.
It is by your own your capacity to understand the truth through your experience of life and time and death and strife.
And allowing yourself to accept that you know absolutely nothing.

Who am I

It came about as I was watching a scene in a movie, where the protagonist is crying to her God about her troubles…
An insight spoke out and asked, "where is this trouble she speaks about when she sleeps?"
Where is her story when she sleeps?
Where is she when she sleeps!?
Isn't the truth that she is that which she disappears into when she sleeps?
Isn't that which is always here and is totally beyond life and death?
Totally beyond being human or anything else?
But you don't want to hear this for it will shatter your world…
You don't want to hear this because, it is just too radical…
So continue as you will.
But the truth will wait for you to finally see that you are that which is beyond all images and appearances …Indescribable yet the only thing that is. Absolutely everything is included within this dream of being awake as a human, or awake as consciousness.
And this needs to be seen through as just as illusory as the imagined stories.
It doesn't matter then if there is silence or noise.
What can you say about yourself when everything including consciousness is an appearance within this that does not appear or disappear ?
Don't even know if it can be said that this is within, for it could just as well be without.
Because in the end it joins the smoke and mirrors that was reflected as yourself, when you see that there is no you…
Only That.


The day I die will be the most beautiful day.Not because my life was so hard, but because it was that magnificent.

My work would be done here and I will be returning to my soul place.

Where I will meet the ones who wait with love in their hearts and warm embraces for the time we spent apart.

There, as if woken up from a dream I see myself sip on my favorite soup, carrying with me the lessons of experience from the lifetime spent on, what they call, planet earth.

I may not have great stories to tell, for silence would have consumed me in this place where communication would anyway need no words.

The one thing I will have though, is the essence of the human dance which I would never have imagined was the salvation for the gods.

All that time that humans spend thinking they are the ones that are bound and need to be freed,

They do not see that it in liberating their own struggle, they not only transform the demons, but also set free the ruler of the Ultimate Dimension.

The one known by different names through what is described as religion,

The one they fight wars about but have never found to be in any kind of shape or form.

But when they look to their own hearts through a split second, the flood gates open to allow the heavens to come forth and bless existence.

It is then that I will whisper to my human brothers and sisters that their power is even greater than the gods they worship, if only they surrendered their beliefs in limits and woke up as the timeless.

Sharing an An old one called “Home”

Now that I have reached here

After an epic journey of which I have no recollection

Now that I have reached here

At this place which in any map has no location

This place which was always here

Waiting for me to claim

This place which does not change

No matter how much imagination tries to release or chain

Now that I’m here there seems nothing more to do

Nothing to lose or find or reach or realise

Gaping open, differences unknown

I am speechless and alone

Or am I?

I imagine I stand at this point in silence

To breathe in a bit of the heady fumes from the trials and efforts put in

But all the air seems to be sucked out of time with past present and future missing

There is no one standing and no point and no silence

Here I am not alone

Here i’ve never been away from home

Formless is form, form is formless

Don’t look for the formless outside you, or even inside you for a change

The formless is right where the form is, holding space

You cannot let go of one and find the other

It’s Only when you allow the material, you find that it’s magic manifesting as matter

Running from or running toward will never get you there

Stillness is the secret to seeing, that you are the secret you look for, through escape

You were never the fragment in time, you thought you were

You are everything and that means literally EVERYTHING, awake to who you are, always ever HERE

Reactions from the universe

When the universe looks what does she see?

Does she see a world that’s divided and self destructing through reckless consumption of all resources natural and synthetic?

Or does she, see herself, become more conscious of herself who was neglected so far due to ignorance of self?

Does she see different religions and countries and colours and degrees ?

Or does she see herself in a lower state trying to find herself in a higher state?
Do you think you are an individual and the universe is something other than you?

Or do you think that you are in a universe struggling to survive? If that is what you think then don’t you think that is the problem and not so much that you are struggling? The problem is that you are trying to survive as the individual in an unknown universe….when the truth is that you are the unknown universe and don’t need to survive as an individual to be alive.

You as the universe would only rejoice that consciousness is finally waking up to what has been done wrong for so long

A few monsters might be all it takes to get the whole world together on the same side for once

You might be Finally waking up from the slumber and noticing how you have been fooling yourself, and finding in your heart to speak up against what you feel is far from harmonious

It may not be as bad as you think when you look from the point of view of the whole universe
The universe has not felt this elevated in a long time surely, 

While it felt dead with people going about thinking their own needs were all that were relevant within their own little stories

As she feels the energy of the world shift from the mundane to the real, 

She feels the sense of hope and transformation coming through the chaos and fear

“Bless these idiots” she says, “It took their own monstrous reflections to make them finally see, that, that is not what they stand for as the Universe which is Me”

Discouraging encouragement toward sprituality

In spiritual disciplines, we usually find advise to not follow desires, to not indulge in extremities, to not go with your restless energies etc. This might work as a fake it till you make it concept. But the truth is, that the spiritual inclination is something we cannot always explain. Especially if it is genuine.  Because it has not reason or rationality to it. There might have been some reason when you decided to explore it to feel good, or be happy or to end suffering. But then you enter a stage after that which is completely destructive to your story in life. At this stage you cannot go back to your old ways of following a good feeling, be it though a meditative or yoga practice or the bliss of the quiet mountains or indulgence in material things. At this stage you are fully aware of the raging war inside you between truth and illusion. And here you had better allow truth to win and this might be at the cost of all your illusions, or in other words your false beliefs, your ideas, ideologies, your bullshit, being confronted and slain by your own awareness of them. There is nothing angelic about this stage. It can be painful and you may not always see clearly. But your love and intention is the only thing that will take you through it. If anything you will walk around with your hair in shambles and barely hanging on to your bearings. But even in this war zone, something inside you might still be smiling, because you know that this is pure grace. It does not feel like the doom that you experienced when you were still a full person with insecurities based on what you were conditioned by. This is a sacred destruction, Shiva’s destruction, he being the symbol for the destroyer of illusions. So spirituality is not for you if you have a lot to lose. Because you can be rest assured you will lose absolutely everything. Not necessary that you will end up on the streets. Although that is possibility as well. But the point is that it won’t matter to you what you lose in the realm of illusions, because you know that you have no choice but to see it through to the end. It calls for a love and faith that is way bigger than all your insecurities and fears. The left brained logical mind might call this stupid. But you know that this is what you are here for. If you have a doubt then you mustn’t even get on this journey. Not to discourage, but that it what it calls for. And if you are not willing to die to this, you could be stuck in a place you don’t want to be and settle for less, which would be a sellout. In the end you will see how beautifully things turn out, with you out of the way. You will see all your fears were nothing but mirrors showing you scary reflections of your mind’s imagination which came from conditioning that was projected on you through the ignorance of the world around you. So you need to go inward and remove this conditioning so the spontaneity can flow.

The desirelessness,  the restfulness, the peace, the silence, the contentment for no reason, are all the result of a true and genuine transformation. In fact if there is a desire, you might as well go with it till it exhausts itself. If your seeking is genuine, then you will set up sweet disaster for yourself at every step, which will by itself refine your tastes to appreciating and creating peace, love and joy as your natural state that does not depend on anything outside yourself. This will be your experience when you, as a person with all your ideas come to an end and silence expresses as depth, intensity, fearlessness, love and purity.  You will then experience yourself as everything and nothing, you will then experience yourself as timelessness.

As you see yourself in this light, your need to accumulate wealth, your need to consume, and you need to chase experiences, will be replaced with intense appreciation for all that is. If a large number of us transform to this state, we wouldn’t cut down trees like there is no tomorrow to build blocks of ugly high-rises that block out the sun and increase the heat. We wouldn’t pollute the earth through excessive consumption of fuels that emit poison into the air. We wouldn’t hoard at the expense of the less fortunate. We wouldn’t hurt animals to wear things we think make us stand out in society and feel good about ourselves. We wouldn’t see distinctions between anything be it people  or other species and hence there would be no wars or terror. We would be simply love expressing love.

But it is your choice.




Have you noticed how you are bombarded with different perceptions all the time throughout the day? One person thinks Trump is the devil incarnate. Another may think that atleast he is not pretending to be an angel like the others did, who were actually the devil in disguise. The common man suffering might want a job not really bothered about the environment. Others who are tired of the monotony and the superficiality of a big job might want to live in a cave for a while and condemn development. Some just want to accumulate as many experiences be it through marriage, kids, travel or picket fences. Another might want to run from it all having been too long in it. Some think they should save the world. Others want a flyover so they are not be stuck in traffic.


All opposing views. All different perceptions. If you agree or have one perception about one matter you think the other is wrong and you are right. Then you divide yourself and feel separated from existence. And this is just not your natural state.


Could you allow all perceptions to be and not try too hard to change them? Atleast not from the level that you are on while perceiving from only your point of view? You don’t need to agree or disagree. All you need to do is realise that they are all different perceptions and you have the capacity to rise above all perceptions and view them non-judgmentally.. To rise above all perceptions means to enter the realm of silence which allows everything to be. It allows your perception to be, and also the other’s. If nothing, what this does is reduce the noise levels of all the chaos in the world.


Then we can act from love rather than panic. Then we can spread more love than fear with all our opinions. Then even if you support a certain cause which is not wrong, you will also be big enough to allow the opposite without which you would have no job.


From this silence which is above all kinds of perceptions, you have better clarity and you will not add to the noise of the world. Like this you can transform what needs to transform and uplift what needs uplifting. If you remain on the level of your opponent you are only encouraging the fight. When you rise above all opposites and allow whatever actions and perceptions to happen including yours and the others, then harmony will follow in the world. Then your perception changes to a peaceful and inclusive one. Like this you can elevate the world through shifting your own perception.




Creativity is flow

Spiritual practice is becoming aware of our minds, so it is allowed space to settle and thereby settle our energies. Unsettled energies and thought patterns are what creates diseases in our bodies. Hence a practice which helps align us to our natural state of balance will help in all areas of our life. This is probably why yoga has caught on so much. Besides making you feel really good, it also somewhat brings a sense of well-being in general. The reason we go through most of our problems, is because of blocked energy that is expressing in ways that are not comfortable so it can be released and pure free energy can flow. These blocked energy patterns are what manifests situations that are challenging and painful. We may carry huge amounts of these blocked energies and we may also keep adding on to them if we do not want to face them and just want to escape with all kinds of addictions. This is why it makes me cringe when I hear of depression being promoted as something to be treated with medicines. Medicines will only make you a little more addicted and push you deeper into it. Depression is the ultimate cosmic test that is put to you which you can use to transcend the illusion of time itself. A true guide is someone who will make you aware of your own wrong beliefs and give you the power to come out of it on your own. Nobody else can do it for you. You are your own hero. This is the truth.

Of-course it totally depends on you. If you believe that medicines are what will help you then you probably should go for that because it will have a better effect than spiritual practices which you do not have any faith in. Although we refer to them as spiritual practices it is nothing but a humility to be open to learning and unlearning about yourself so you can be healed. The reason we accumulate all these blocked energies is that in life we come across various situations which we didn’t expect and it shocks us and automatically put up defense mechanisms which block our natural flow. The most effective way of releasing and seeing through these energies is having some form of creative outlet. Anything from doing a yoga practice, to painting to writing. Only when there is an abundance of outflow can there be an inflow of energy which is healing and rejuvenating. Even if we think we are not too artistic, we are still creative beings. Unless we express we suppress.

When I first started putting up my writing I was worried of being judged and laughed at. But I saw that my sharing was really my own way of opening up to more and more insights. So if anyone is telling you to not express in subtle or direct ways, make sure you do the opposite. It is nothing but your own fears and insecurities manifesting as their mockery or opinions. Even if you are writing the most ridiculous things or making funny paintings, or dancing in front of the mirror in your room like an idiot, you should go for it. Be silly. There is nothing to take so seriously.